I have been there and done that. Six and a half years ago I got to that "time in my life". I walked away from all the drama and crap that gave me anxiety and panic attacks. Now I can speak from experience. There is no way in this world that I will ever go back to my old dramas and old ways. My brain deserves better, I deserve better. I could never do that to myself again. I love myself too much to take it all away.