You didnt love her. You just didnt want o be alone. Or maybe, maybe she was just food for your ego. Or, or maybe she made you feel better about your miserable life, but you didnt love her. Because you dont destroy people you love.
No relationship is all sunshine, but two people can share an umbrella and survive the storm together! It's always going to rain and there will always be sunshine, but press through the storms of life together and never give up.
I miss the person and the special feeling I had when I was with him. I wish I could still have the someone because that special is pointless without that person to express your feelings towards. But i know that person and me are not meant to be together.