I have been doing it since 7 months.faking a smile & pretending to be normal when all i want is to curl up in bed & howl at gods,all i want to do is shake him & ask why.faking is the worst kind of pain.sucks u dry from inside.
When people look at me I feel so insecure. When they look at me I think the give me dirty looks but I might be imagining and I feel like they laugh at me and I don't understand. I even feel like my 'closest' friends hate me.
Though there are rare exceptions, the majority of people who self harm do not want attention. They are ashamed and terrified of self harming, but can not stop. Instead of judging, try reaching out to someone with a self harm addiction.