Your journey has molded you for your greater god, and it was exactly what it needed to be. Don't think that you've lost time. It took each and every situation you have encountered to bring you to the now. And now is right on time.
Just hang on for tomorrow. Just because today is a terrible day doesn't mean tomorrow won't be THE BEST DAY OF YOUR LIFE. You Just gotta get there. Hebrews Jesus who is the same God forever, will NEVER forsake you, no matter how you feel.