Be with someone who you don’t have to hide from, in any way. No secrets! Make sure you end up with someone who knows all of it and still loves you. A person you can tell your whole life to is a person worth spending a life with.
It’s hard not to fall in love with someone when they see the mixed up parts of your soul. When they understand the darkest and dustiest corners of your mind. and they call because they know you’re not asleep.
Agreed, & while alive you have a chance that things will turn up/change for the better. Life is short & death is long; "there is only one thing certain in life, death, everything else is in the mind" James McLevy, Inspector of Police.