Stop asking yourself what if you can't do it, and instead as yourself what if you can? What if you can write a bestselling novel? What if you can accomplish your dream to be a published writer? If you're willing to work for it, you can.
I hate how you act like I am so much to deal with when all I've done was sit here and let you repeatedly hurt me. Im sorry im not perfect mom. One day ill be gone so you wont have to deal with me ever again.