Victorian style Emilie Marie Bouchard "Polaire" Polaire, or Émilie Marie Bouchaud! A French actress, she had a waist, first bobbed her hair in the and had a nose piercing. She acted in plays and films.
And I hope you figure that out before you give up on it. Pushing them away will only result in one thing -- them leaving. I've always said "I want to be wanted," if you couldn't figure out what you were doing and found out too late, that's your own fault.