Betrayal has stolen me from me. I can't explain how someone's love has destroyed me so that I feel like a shadow of who I once was. I can't explain why you can't look me in the eye with affection when it's all I need. And I wonder if hopelessness has overcome me in a web of deceit from which I cannot untangle myself. Webs floating off my face and finger so long after I've passed through it. It shouldn't still hurt so much. Tell that to the ghost of me.
I thought I loved him but I never knew how much until we began the process of divorce. When someone does everything they can to break you, to scar you, when they seem to take pride in knowing they've destroyed you... You really see the depths of evil a person contains. And yet you still care about them? You still pray for them to find happiness? That's how I know what real love is. And I finally accept that I'm not the problem. The problem is that some people aren't capable...
Something I can't do. When I'm wrong I will always apologize. I'm human I make mistakes. Doesn't mean I'm a bad person. Idc if one doesn't forgive me but as long as I acknowledged my wrongs and apologized. I have peace. No point in dwelling in what was said or done. Can't change it so only thing left to do is apologize and move on.