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Because he's the rock upon which I stand. A present help in time of need. When this whole world has left me all alone. I can feel him walking right by me. When everyone walks out that's when he walks on. Proving once again he's my dearest friend. He promised he'd go with me always even until the end.
I've been broken, I've cut, I've self harmed, I went weeks without eating, I have depression, I had my heart broken way to many times, I've lost friends through suicide, I wanted to kill myself because of my best friend, I've been judge for my earing loss, I've had a monster inside of me killing me, I believed that I was a mistake, I was one foot away from a moving car, I almost jumped out of my window because of a stupid boy, Everyone has always lied to me by saying "i'll be there" they left.
I've looked around me and I've seen... The fake smiles, the meaningless words, and empty hearts, trying in vain to make sense of this world. I'm not going to be that way. I know what adds meaning, love does. Not the cheap love that kisses every boy that smiles just right, or whispers words of fake sympathy when a friend seems down, but real love. A real love that sacrifices, whose actions uphold their words. The kind of love that God loves.
Pain.. What causes my pain? Im horrible, im ugly, im in horrible shape, i cut, i think of suicide, i starve myself, i feel left out, my family doesnt care, i cry myself to sleep at night, right before i sleep i cut myself, i have millions of health problems, im always in the hospital, im... Im pathetic... Knowing all of this.. Causes my pain.. It hurts :'(