"Would you like you, if you met you?" If the answer is yes then you are living the life you should be. If the answer is no, then you have some thing to think about changing cause your asking for more than yourself.
I hope you take this pain you're experiencing and learn to never keep you mouth shut on things that matter to you. Courage comes in all shapes and forms and showing your insecurities/vulnerabilities is one of them. My intention was not to cause you pain. I am who I am and I can't nor I won't apologize for that. You can assert that I did not disclose my friendship and that's a lie. You didn't ask any questions even when I shared some stories with you.